Yesterday, I laughed. I spent my whole day laughing. Excuse me, I was not crazy, I was just being thankful for every little things, remember? So I laughed with my colleague, I laughed with my manager, I laughed with my brother and sister in God, I had so much great time with them all. Then I took time to think. “What if I cry tonight because I am overwhelmed with this joy?”, “People become very sensitive of sorrow when they spend too much time laughing”, etc. Then I feel like God speak to me, “Try me”.
What do you think about Miracle? I used to be sceptical to this. I used to think that the people who tell their miracles were not real. I used to think that all of them were fake. Until I realized that miracles is happened to me. Until I realized that miracles is not miracles. Getting confused? Read my story below.
I finished my college last month and it really took me one and a half year to accomplish it. It was not because I wasn’t able to do it (because someone told me that I am able to do it) but it was because me, myself, thought that I can not do it. At all!
Then the day came when I really tried to runaway from the thesis. I hate my thesis and I always tried to find the best way to avoid it. I knew that I had to finish my study. I knew that I had to finish what I have started. I knew it. I only knew it, but I did not want to do it. I stuck. I stopped. And the worst thing is, my lectures were also stopping guiding me.
I was in deep depression at that moment. It was not because my lecturers, who did not want to see me. It was because my mind and my heart were not in the same idea. My mind said that I had to do that while my heart said no way.
The word faith comes from the Latin fides which means trustworthy. The word ‘confide in’ has the same root word with the word faith. When you have faith in something or somebody, it means you confide in that thing or person that they will serve you confidentially and that you can have confidence that they will do their best to do what they supposed to do and to keep their promises.
Having faith is not the same as believing in fairy tales. While the fairy tales fascinate us, faith will scare us. You only need to use your imagination if you want to believe in a fairy tales, but you need to have more than courage to be able to have faith. Fairy tales are created as a feel-good make-believe story that can make us fly to the moon. Faith, on the other hand, will knock us down with the hard reality of the truth.
K: Ron, you like S right? Just admit it.
L: Yes, just be a man laa..
M: *smiles*
It was a situation where I have no idea what they are talking about. Well, for starter, I do know S.. but how they reach the conclusion that I love S is just beyond me.
I was just speechless, not that I feel ashamed, but the thing is whatever I say wont change what they accuse me of. It is just at that moment, when my best friend suddenly said this. Listen..
I don’t have many things to tell, but I have small testimony that I want to share..I think.. more and more, day by day, I love this small city of Singapore. This city is nice. But most of all, is because my faith is renewed here. I’m thankful for that.
I remember the days before I came to this city. Days that I spent in my hometown, Jakarta. Can be said, that time was one of the lowest points in my life. I spend my days just watched cartoon, almost all the time. I watched Hello Kitty almost every day. And hope wish I could be part of it. So cute, sweet, and peaceful. Real life seemed too hard to overcome. And in that period also, for the first time I watched Peanuts and fell for the cartoon. I think many of my friends already know how I like the cartoon (Peanuts), but just some of them know that I fell for Peanuts because.. I felt like Charlie Brown.. That boy who always fails, feels ruin everything, and lonely all the time. That exactly what I felt..
Then.. I came to Singapore. Looking for job. Got one, which until today, I’m still grateful about it. I thank God for my job.






