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Yesterday night I went to the movie. Actually it was unexpected, since I didn’t plan of watching movie that day. Actually I’d planned of doing something else, but because of work load, and occupied with work, I then forgot about my plan. In short, I couldn’t do my actual plan. So there was I, thinking what to do next. Then I decided to watch movie.

After watching movie, when I was about to walk out the cinema, I was thinking of checking the time. Then I slipped my hand to my pocket to take my phone out. But it wasn’t there. I immediately checked my bag, trying to find where my phone was. I spilled my things out of my bag, but my phone still couldn’t be found. I lost my phone.

My mind became confused because I wasn’t sure where I had put it & left it. Whether it fell from my pocket, or I left it in toilet, or.. many ‘or’. I was confused. If someone finds my phone before I do, I don’t think I can get it back. Once my friend left her phone in public toilet, and it was taken by the founder. Lost & never return. I ran back to the nearest place I might have left it, my seat in cinema. Pale and panic, I was searching for my phone.

“what are you looking for, ma’am?” all of sudden the worker (cinema worker) came.
“I.. I.. am lost my phone.. “Confusing, I answer him using wrong sentence, but he didn’t realize.
“What type of phone ma’am?”
“It is.. uhm.. uhm.. nokia.. but I’m not sure about the series.. It is Singtel.. ”
“is it yours ma’am?” he took out his hand which he hid at the back, and opened his palm.

My eyes grew bigger as on his palm I saw my phone.

“Yes, yes, it is. It is.” I took my phone and felt so relieved because it was found.

I looked and him and said ‘thank you very much’ many times. i was so happy I didn’t lose it. Then he was away. I grabbed my wallet, and took 10 dollars out from it. I folded the money into smaller piece. I was planning to reward the founder by giving him money like my mum always does. She gives money for everything. Sometimes I think perhaps that is how grown ups’ world works, give and take money for everything.

I approached the person to give him the money. But he shook his head and moved his hands rejecting the money I offered. “It’s okay”, I said. But he kept rejecting. 3 times I offered and he was still rejecting. He said, “It’s already our job.”

So then I gave up, put down my hand, smile, said thank you, and went away.

So, that is how the story goes. My phone lost, but then it was found. Before, many years ago, same thing happened to me. i left my wallet in the toilet, but the founder called the number he found inside (which happened it was my cousin’s phone number), told us that he had found a wallet. My wallet. I lost my wallet, but then it was found. Sometimes I lost my things, but thank God, most of the time I got them back.

Like what I always do, search for meaning in every life’s circumstance, I am thinking like this.
1. God has been kind to me. He protects me. Always.
2. But then i think, perhaps it is too arrogant to think like that (no. 1).. Because I met quite a lot people who lost their things and never got them back. So I try to find a logical n reasonable pattern for it. I think.. Perhaps because.. My belongings are not fancy enough to be taken. People are not interested in taking my belongings because even theirs are better! Perhaps. I look very poor so people always pity me, and instead of taking my things, they give me things. Perhaps. But if this is what actually happens, I still thank God for this. I thank God for fulfilling my life with contentment which is out of having fancy stuff. Regardless of my capability of affording fancy stuff, I don’t have much interest of having it. And I think, actually by doing this, I save myself from harm & trouble: robbery, lost things, etc.

Btw for point 2 (which usually leads to money thing), please don’t get me wrong on this. I don’t say money not important. Cos it is. It is a reality of life. I prefer having it than not having it. I enjoy what money could give. My point is, needing & enjoying it, different than craving for it.

And I thank God, for whichever I think (either no. 1 or no. 2), i still have reason to be thankful.

And the last thing, I want to thank God for good movie I watched last night. Kungfu Panda is a cute movie. A must watch movie. I like it.

Thank God.